Never Give up!

We all have hopes and dreams that seem to change over time. As a little girl I wanted to be a rodeo queen/veterinarian. I wanted to have a massive ranch with a paint horse breeding program and chickens while also being a New York Times best selling author... Instead I dropped out of college the first week because of some massive family drama. Got married to a man in the military and moved far away from home. Did school on and off over the years while raising a family.

Finally when I turned 27 it hit me. I needed to do things for me, yes family is important but it shouldn't mean that you throw away your dreams. Around the same time I went through a separation that ultimately led to a divorce. Instead of feeling sorry for myself and my life it gave me the fuel to push forward and do something for myself that my children can be both proud and slightly embarrassed of me for.

I worked my ass off to finish my first book. Close friends and family loved it, I went the self-publishing route knowing nothing and of course it flopped. I pulled the title, re-worked it and submitted it to publishing companies. It was picked up immediately.

At age 28 I had signed a 9 book contract! Happy days! My hard work was paying off and I was one step closer to my dream. A year flies by and with only 3 months before my first book was set to be published the 2020 plague reared its head and my publisher dropped my titles due to current sales.

This wasn't the publishers fault, it was just how life had gone. I cried and let myself feel defeated for a few hours, wallowed in my self pity then pulled up my granny panties (They are comfy, leave me alone!) and hit the computer. I sent out more query letters to more publishers and now I wait. I had a wonderful offer from an editor who also gave me information I didn't have before when I tried to self publish.

So here I am today, 29 years old, reworking a book I thought was perfect. Waiting for responses from other publishers. I have decided that if these companies deny my books I will try the self-publishing route again, but this time with more experiance and help that I lacked before. I won't give up. I believe in myslef and I have trust in fate and knwoing that everything happens for a reason. My determination is higher than ever and i refuse to give up on myself and my dreams. Always trust in yourself and know that even when looking ahead that hill may look like a mountain at first, but then once you get over it and look back you realize it was just a hill all along.

*** Picture of my cat Vader looking all sweet and innocent, Don't let his looks fool you!